for whatever we lose,

2nd shift really does not agree with me. i find it hard to go to bed before 1am after working until 11, and then even after sleeping 8-10 hours i still fall asleep during the day. the problem is that captel's shifts generally go like...6:30-noon, 12-4 (most students work this shift in between day and evening courses, i guess, which is why they don't have 6-2 shifts or something) and 3-11:30 (what i'm working). so i need full time.......pretty much stuck on nights...need to figure this out.........sick of treating myself like a 5 year old "remember to take a nap now" "now eat something" "now brush your hair" alright

it's probably just part of whatever is wrong with me, and i know that within the last 2 months i've probably become "depressed" again, but i HATE HATE HATE using that word, i remember when i was in therapy in 06, my therapist would refer to it as "not feeling happy" because anytime she said depressed i would visibly cringe.

maybe it's just because i feel like depression should be attached to someone who actually has a real problem and i just did this to myeslf.

i've had this window open for 13 minutes now so i guess i'll post this

FRIENDS ONLY.